Too Small for The world

I have just been asked: "What is you achievement in the past two years?"

I was thinking, thinking really hard. Could not find the answer. Really desperate. I was like "What have I done?" NOTHING! But I made something up to be able to answer that question, just so I can get over it.

It made me think. Think about all aspects in my life. Still nothing came up. I start to believe that I'm letting myself down. It is easy to compare our life with others, what they have that I don't, but never easy to think what I have that they don't. I feel so pathetic.

I just hope, my time is enough to do everything I want, be able to fulfill my dream, become the person I've been dreaming of. It might be late, but it will never be late for me. This moment maybe a preparation time for me, hope I am ready soon. I am not holding my own blue print, I might have plan but we never know what tomorrow brings, right?

Where there's a will, there's a way. Hope I will be able to find my way and make it happen in my life. I've been letting myself down, I am nothing so far. I keep holding back, I wish I have the strength to do anything I want, stand on my own two feet, carry on. Moving on might not be easy, pushing myself, stretch it out until I move forward, that's what I am going to do. Hard, but who ever promise life will be easy?

-vc-