And the Story Goes

A friend's friend once said, "You cannot keep looking for the best, perfect one or whatever you try to find. Because nothing is perfect in this world, all you can do is to love perfectly, not to find perfect one to love." That is true but "We accept the love we think we deserve." People around might wonder how come she ends up with douche like that, it's simply because she accepts the love she thinks she deserves.

Genuine and sincere heart is hard to find. It's rare but you could find it somehow, somewhere. But once you found it, you start to think you can't have it, why did you try to find the best or perfect one before? Don't you want sincere and genuine heart? Isn't it perfect? The best? I mean what is the most beautiful gift people could give? Heart isn't it? It does freak people out because they think they don't deserve it. So why wasting time try to find the best or perfect one if at the end of the day you don't think you deserve it anyway. Why even bother trying?

It's scared people to death because human tends to disappoint others, that is why even when the best is in front of you, you don't have heart to grab it and claim it yours because you're scared going back to the disappointment path, either way of disappointment, you or the other party.

So what is it called? Not moving on? Not letting go? Call it whatever you want, words for heart: "Heart, please fall when you're ready not when you're lonely." Broken heart is painful but more painful is the lonely heart.

Is it fair saying you're still living in the past when you miss someone? Anyone can miss a friend from high school, a friend they met somewhere along the way before they got here, does that mean they live in the past? Does that mean they're not present? Still holding on to the past?

What is past, present and future anyway? What are those all about if you don't have a straight mind? Keep worrying things, keep living under people's spell (judgmental society) -- dictate you who you are, what you do and shouldn't do. Living under someone's rules? And this is what we call free world.

I've experienced "The Perks of Being Wallflower", still a going on process though don't think have reached the ending just yet.

#free your mind

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Live A Life, Live It Up

Auckland, New Zealand for me is place of exploration, indeed! I've experienced great things here, after all my time here is not too bad at all.

New Zealand as country is place where I experience crazy stuff, be adrenalin junkie and explorer. I visit place to place, enjoy the beautiful scenery everywhere I go and just constantly spoil my eyes with awesome panoramic view. Road trip is a must here!

Auckland as city is place where I try something for first time. I'm looking forward to unfold another first time thing I will do here. But while I'm experiencing that, I might tell one of things I've done for first time here which is watching concert. I cannot believe that I didn't write any blog of any concert I've gone, watched and enjoyed, ridiculously unbelievable!

I've seen some concert here but first one was COLDPLAY. It was brilliant! I love the whole thing, the idea, the creativity, the detail and it is definitely world class concert. The second one was alright, pretty small concert and it was OWL CITY. It was cozy, homey, small stage and not too many people. I'm not a big fan of OWL CITY but I enjoyed it. Third one was LINKIN PARK. That was huge! It might be as big as COLDPLAY but LINKIN PARK was indoor with smaller space but packed. It was rocking. Last but not least was THE SCRIPT! It was a simple concert but the connection is felt so deep. All experiences behind creating the songs make those songs so meaningful and you feel bonding with the songs.

Danny said "Thank you for not embarrassed singing hard time songs." It doesn't mean you're melancholic, weak, soft or whatever. It means you value hard times and not afraid to sing soundtracks of your life. I love all THE SCRIPT songs, for me THE SCRIPT is one in a million band who has great album, by album I mean all songs in the album are just amazing, not just couple singles. Again, musician with great experiences in sorrow will produce great music too! Poor them, if it bleeds, it leads, reminding me of news in journalism.

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Coldplay

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Owl City

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Linkin Park

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The Script

Another first in Auckland is studying overseas. It is a hard time being student again but all I can do it make the most of it and give my best, no regret.

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AUT Postgraduate Student

I also have some things haunting me from Australia. Those things pretty much follow me here. First one is my ring. I have seen this ring in Australia but didn't buy it there although I love it so much but I've been given second chance as I found the exact same ring here so I bought it.

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Black Diamond

Another second chance is part of watching concert. I wanted to see The Script when I was in Brisbane but I couldn't make it and when I found out The Script is having concert in Auckland, I was thrilled and couldn't miss the opportunity to watch it, I cannot blow second chance, can I? After all, I've been given second chance and I make it right.

I can experience great things here because I have great friends. Thanks for all my friends who make things happened. Much appreciate and looking forward for new adventure. Love you all!

#YOLO

-vc-

Almost Insane

The most important thing I've learned (in rough way) is to let go. If it comes back to me then it's mine but if it is not then it's never mine in the first place. I let go in order to move on. But am I moving on? Like a friend of mine said "we're stuck, not going anywhere." Is it a sign we've been holding on to something?

Life is a cycle. Everyone knows that, of course. It's about doing the same thing over and over again until you get sick doing it or doing something new to keep you excited. One thing for sure, losing enthusiasm causes damage. It's not about breaking the cycle because there is no point of doing that but how to keep you going, running in the cycle with the spirit.

My thought is that the cycle is about spending money. No doubt, everything is about money. Nothing is free in this world. You think oxygen is free? Think again. It's like another retribution to spend more money, when you live, is all about paying things to keep you living. Oxygen keeps you alive, but then you need to drink, eat and do all those things in life, and are they free? Don't think so.

So the cycle will be there forever, to let go is to start brand new day with new spirit even you lose your enthusiasm, find new excitement to keep you going then even you think you're not moving on, you are bit by bit, inch by inch, collect them all then one day you'll realize you've finally moved on. Moving forward isn't always achieving something literally in concrete object but how you grow, forward in mind, mentality and character. Let go to spend while you can spend, not worrying to lose anything or running out of something. At last, one shot, that's all we have in life. Got nothing to hide and nothing to lose. The more you protect something, the more it will hurt you in the long run.

Does it make sense? Don't think it does but well, what makes sense anyway? Everything is blur, kind of lost somewhere along the way. So what matters?

"I'm about to lose my mind 

You've been gone for so long, I'm running out of time 

I need a doctor, call me a doctor 

I need a doctor, doctor to bring me back to life."

(Eminem featuring Dr. Dre - I Need a Doctor)

#reflection

-vc-

Judge Me!

Meeting interesting people is attached as part of your job if you work in hospitality, including me. I just experienced something tonight that got me thinking. Who am I to judge people? And who are you to judge someone?

I was serving TWO customers, not only one, who proudly said "I work at Showgirls." First time, I was shocked, couldn't make eye contact as usual and speechless. I didn't know how to start a conversation without offending them. Because you know how hospitality, somehow you need to be friendly, start a regular conversation like "Been busy today?", "How's your day?" or anything you can come up with basically. But these two girls got me lost in ideas to have a little conversation while they were waiting. They're really friendly but I have no idea what to ask them!

I hope they didn't realize my shocking face when they told me that facts. Because I never had anyone so proud and open saying it out load. Another culture shock? I guess so. Apparently in my country, we can tell if someone is an 'escort', 'whore' or whatever they do in that business. They have different level and way of showing it but they won't tell other people out loud what they do, people just ASSUME, and assumption can be wrong, most of the time.

Different culture, different way of doing and saying things. In here, people can say and do anything they want without worrying what people might think. Their principle is "mind your own business!" People can be judgmental nowadays but I feel here is less than my own country, of course! People here can be whatever they want for living. Garbage man, cleaner, security, baby sitter, name it, they make money and they live from it, while in my country if your work as those jobs I've just mentioned, you're basically nothing. Let us look at ourselves and ask once again:

"Who are we to judge other people?"

#impressed

-vc-

Hot Water Beach

Road trip can be one alternative to enjoy holiday. It’s always good to visit small town, interact with local community through the local market, just to look around and see what is happening around us. On this Easter holiday, we decided to go to Coromandel, Whitianga. It wasn’t a perfect weather to go but it wasn’t too bad either so it’s alright, we still can go around and enjoy that beautiful little town.

Typical New Zealand’s town and scenery is spread evenly throughout the country. If you have big budget, South Island can be an option but if you only have small budget, there are plenty places to visit around. In Coromandel itself, there are lots of look up point, beaches and sites for walking/hiking.

Lonely Bay, Cooks Beach, Buffalo Beach and so on are some of many options in Coromandel, Whitianga. One of the greatest beaches is Hot Water Beach. When we arrived, there were lots of people in this beach, might be the favorite amongst all. There were lots of holes in the beach; people have spades on their hands. Old and young, local and tourist gathered to enjoy the excitement of hot water beach in the chill weather.

The water from the sea is cold! But there is some spots where you can have warm or even hot water coming out through the sand but then you need to dig in to be able to enjoy the warm water. It’s kind of building your own pool, spa pool. It’s cool, first time, first experience and was doing it alone. But then met a group that tried to build their pool then helped and joined them, pretty good experience indeed. After digging in, building the sand into a pool, it’s a great feeling, hard work is paid off. It’s good to fight and enjoy the sweet fruit after that. Teamwork worked out well, won’t be able to o it with one self.

One question came up when we were walking around: “Do you want to live here?” It got me imagining having a simple life on the countryside, have little yard with not many just couple sheep, cows, horses and dogs, a vineyard, business maybe café or accommodation centre and just live along the way. That is going to be a plan. Let us start dreaming and making it come true. I don’t mind leaving in a small town, really. I always want to live in the city, hustle, noisy, fast and instant environment but one day I know for sure, I will give up the city life and live peacefully somewhere, where I can call home.

#more adventure to come

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