Almost Insane

The most important thing I've learned (in rough way) is to let go. If it comes back to me then it's mine but if it is not then it's never mine in the first place. I let go in order to move on. But am I moving on? Like a friend of mine said "we're stuck, not going anywhere." Is it a sign we've been holding on to something?

Life is a cycle. Everyone knows that, of course. It's about doing the same thing over and over again until you get sick doing it or doing something new to keep you excited. One thing for sure, losing enthusiasm causes damage. It's not about breaking the cycle because there is no point of doing that but how to keep you going, running in the cycle with the spirit.

My thought is that the cycle is about spending money. No doubt, everything is about money. Nothing is free in this world. You think oxygen is free? Think again. It's like another retribution to spend more money, when you live, is all about paying things to keep you living. Oxygen keeps you alive, but then you need to drink, eat and do all those things in life, and are they free? Don't think so.

So the cycle will be there forever, to let go is to start brand new day with new spirit even you lose your enthusiasm, find new excitement to keep you going then even you think you're not moving on, you are bit by bit, inch by inch, collect them all then one day you'll realize you've finally moved on. Moving forward isn't always achieving something literally in concrete object but how you grow, forward in mind, mentality and character. Let go to spend while you can spend, not worrying to lose anything or running out of something. At last, one shot, that's all we have in life. Got nothing to hide and nothing to lose. The more you protect something, the more it will hurt you in the long run.

Does it make sense? Don't think it does but well, what makes sense anyway? Everything is blur, kind of lost somewhere along the way. So what matters?

"I'm about to lose my mind 

You've been gone for so long, I'm running out of time 

I need a doctor, call me a doctor 

I need a doctor, doctor to bring me back to life."

(Eminem featuring Dr. Dre - I Need a Doctor)

#reflection

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