Roots Before Branches

D*mn, it's hard. I didn't think that it could be this hard. I did this three years ago and I'm doing it now all over again. It's suppose to be easy right? I've done it. Well, it's not.

People say something happen for a reason, makes me wonder. What is the reason I always move, leave people I love, separate from people I care? I haven't got the answer yet. I'm running my life, keep trying to stay strong, keep going, keep moving. At least I'm trying and every time I feel like quitting, there will always voices around me saying "Don't give up". One more thing my close friend always reminds me "Be grateful".

My close friends say I'm strong. Well, even a hero can bleed. The situation won't get any better and I've been pushed to be stronger. I'm not okay but I have to be okay. I'll be alright.

So many things to do and say
But I can't seem to find my way
But I wanna know how
I know I'm meant for something else
But first I gotta find myself
But I don't know how

Oh, why do I reach for the stars
When I don't have wings to carry me that far?

I gotta have roots before branches
To know who I am before I know who I wanna be
And faith to take chances
To live like I see a place in this world for me

Sometimes I don't wanna feel and forget the pain is real
Put my head in the clouds
Oh, start to run and then I fall
Seeing I can't get it all without my feet on the ground

There's always a seed before there's a rose
The more that it rains, the more I will grow

Whatever comes I know how to take it
Learn to be strong I won't have to fake it
Oh, you're understanding

Oh, but when you come and do it best
There ain't nothing to stopping east to west 

(I'm not sure if this is right)
But I'll still be standing
I'll be standing

#standstrong

-vc-