MAY

May I be happy?

May I be scared?

May I be sad?

May I be disappointed?

May I be the one? The only one?

I MAY! And this is MAY! I have mixed feeling. I'm freaking out. Finally realize that the clock is ticking. I'm running out of time here. I'm running away from some friends thinking that I have to learn to live without them. Is it the right move? I don't know really. Good bye is always hard. I wish I'm brave and strong enough to deal with it. Enjoy the time here while I can, make the most of it instead of avoiding people around me. I am scared to death! I want to go without regrets. I don't wanna be there and think back that I should have done this or that, I will do it while I can, while I still have a chance. A tiny chance to make the most memorable life here.

I will be fine. I might lose certain things. Losing things isn't the end of the world, losing myself is. Keep myself together, be strong for my own sake. Being strong as a single fighter isn't easy, it's about winning the battle with or without supporter. I have to keep fighting in my own battle until the game is over. I'm running low of power supply but it doesn't mean I have no power.

I will be my last supporter for myself who stand still when everyone is walking away. The most cheerful cheerleader I could ever be through downfalls. The biggest fan of all who adores and admires the idol with the loudest voice. At the end of the day, I will only have strong me, maybe weak for other people but strong enough for my own battle.

MAY I BE ME? Single fighter who struggles her own battle with a hope of winning the life championship. Persistence and endurance, I'm doing my best.

tears and love,

-vc-